I take it back
I know exactly what to say

I miss home I miss my room and my bed and people, I miss camp and having some of the best people in the universe allways within walkign distance. I miss my mom and her randomly coming downsatirs at like 1 am to see what i was working on and her allways asking why i didnt go to church or student council. I miss my lil sister and the way when i was upset or sad she was allways there to bring me gingerale or anythign even when i snaped at her to leave me alone. I miss niki randomly calling me when she was in nanton i miss our random trips to high river to go to the roadhouse and her allways callign me to see why i was late when we were suposed to do lunch. I miss random 3 am phone calls and random 3 am humtys dessert trips with ty. I miss our OC nights. I miss kay and our hot tub sex in the city breezer nights. I miss high school and knowing where all my classes were and knowing my teachers and them knowing me and me not being afraid of them. I miss student council and SADD and choir and band and just being invovled. I miss sweet queen pizza and veggy burgers. I miss my church and my church family and my Sunday school kids I miss erin my church sister and her hugs and sitting with me I miss cory and the way she woul allways believe in me. I miss jesse helping me with math. I goign downtown tot he candy store with sadie and renting videos and how with her i could allways make things right no matter how mean i had been. I miss allways knowing whatt o do and how to do it right. I miss being surrounded by people who cared about me and wnated me to suceed I miss knowing exactly where i fit in. I miss my mountains and how they were there no matter what I miss ny house and the way the sun lights up the living room cuz of the windows I miss myr oom and my "easter egg walls" i miss the smell of my room and my stuffed animals and my throw rugs and my bed and my lime green desk light. I miss my pink cow boy hat. I miss nanton and how people allways say hi eevnw hen they dont know you I miss my cat and how he would just snuggle up with me and start purring as soon as i was in a stationairy position. I miss english class and our inside jokes like "the air ball" and our trips downtown to the candy store when everyone skipped. I miss the back porh and laying there and tanning and getting slivers. I miss carl and me calling him a stupied idiot for wanting to be a bull rider. I miss cabarets and knowing everyone on security meaning I was usually pretty well looked after. I miss umeko and our random outings i miss barbara kynna nd her just plain oddness and ow she loves everyone. I miss yearbook lunches and everythign about them. I miss everything about my life and mostly i miss telling myself how silly it was and how boreing it was . . .