mah tummy

I am tired. My tummy also hurts.
That is all
for now

blech

i am incredibly tired and sort of hungry for casrbs but im tired so i think im just gonna go ot bed i just thought id try and update soemthing before i left for edmt but a decent post isnt seeming likely so im gonna quit while im ahead
ciao

lurve

saw this on nex thought id share it



Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it. Touching words from the mouth of babes. What does Love mean? A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?"

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

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"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

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"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired" Terri - age 4

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"My mommy loves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

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"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4 --------------------------------------------------------------------------------

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

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"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image) Karen - age 7

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6 --------------------------------------------------------------------------------

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"

cornmeal muffins

My tummy seems to be having issues this morning. For no apparent or obvious reason I feel incredibly queasy, I am very upset by this. sometime in the next half hour or so im suposed to go for a walk lol the weather is finally semi nice though so I am ok with this. I think I may have to convince the others that we need to stop at mainstreet cafe so I can geta cornmean muffin. I am slightly addicted.

I have no idea right now what is going on with YC and I am very upset that something I put effort into organising has been hijacked and may no longer be happening I find this very upsetting. I get extremly irritated when people try and take over doing something and then screw it up (excuse my terminology).

I am also very frusterated with a friend of mine who seems to be intent on doing whutever they want regardless of ot hurting me or our friendhsip. Grrrrrrrr darn selfish oblivious people, I am also suposed to do lunch with this friend later this week and am not to excited about acting happy the whole time, hmm maybe im bitter immature and all those htings but whut evs im allowed. I am only human after all.

A very bored human.

As we grow up, we learnThat even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

ive seen this on soo many nex pages i had to copy and use it lol i love it

Tiny Town

On friday mroning I realized how much growing up in a small town has impacted my life. I want to share this in here just so that I can get it out.

Walking down the hall on friday my close friend asked me if i had seen my diploma exam marks yet, I said no are they in ?? and she informed me that they were and our home room teacher had them. After walking (ok running) back int he direction i came from I realized that I had indeed passed and was now finished with high school math a subject that has plagued me since i was in elementary. Without hesitation I ran into my high school math teachers class room interupting her class of grade 9s she ran up to me and we hugged and talked and laughed. She then put her arm around me and introduced me to her grade 9 class as a sucess story and used me to inspire them. My math teacher not only knew me by name but she also knows my favourite color and my best friends names as well as what all the students in her class did on the weekend. I had a math 30 class of 15 students and this at my school is not unusual it was in fact the largest math 30 class in a few years.

This year I will graduate and leave my tiny town of 2000 people all over right now students are anxiously awaiitng graduation and leaving high school I am awaiting leaving my town my home and my grad class a class of 28 students. 28 students who I can name off and remember.

I am constantly told how small town schools are pretty much not comparable to city schools and that a small town students education is being compromised due to low funding out of town staff members and lack of students. I have never found my education to be sacrificed by any of these things. I have had opprotunities to develop bonds with every teacher that has taught me, I have had the same opprotunity with the students I have grown up with. A smallt own school isnt a school its a family with everyone contributing and caring about everyone else. And the next time I hear someone telling my why a small town school is unimportant I would like to hera them name off every person in theire graduation class or every teacher that has taught them. I would also even like to know how many of theire classmates or teachers remember them. I know when im gone i ownt be forgotten by the people at my school not because I was spectacular but because I was not a nameless person lost in a see of nameless faces.

I dont know how much of this makes sense I just needed to share it with soemone or something you know ?

I guess im just gonna miss being a small town girl.

reliant K who i am hates hwo ive been

I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I?ll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can?t let that happen again
?cause then you?ll see my heart
in the saddest state it?s ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]
Who I am hates who I've been
and who I am won?t take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I?ve been
?cause who I?ve been only ever made me...
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I?m ready to try and never become that way again
?cause who I am hates who I?ve been.
Who I am hates who I?ve been.


Reliant K
Who I am hates who Ive been





i am now ordering yall (yes i said yall) to go out and DL or listen to this song some way soem how
ok ?

i can see the little dipper

tonight is me and kay's girls night which we have been planning for a few weeks. I am incredibly excited and i think she is as well, I dont feel like a long posy right now but I will try to write something substantial before I leave for edmt.

yuck

i am very far behind
i still have to do my uni applications
and camp applications for summer staff
and recert my first aid
for osme reason i just cant seem to get started i dunno whuts going on but as soon as i start to think about important stuff i just want to cry
i want to sleep right now but my head and back hurt
i need to be awake in 6 and a half hours
this cant be good

everywhere you turn

I dont know what Im doing it. There I said it I have no clue. Next yr Im suposed to do this whole post secondary thing only problem ? EVERYONE wants me to do something completly diffrent and now I dont even know what I want.

Bible college (cant get a psych degree)
Christian University ($$$$$)
Memorial (umm no problem really except everyone form chirch wants me to go to a religious school and its sooo far way lol but i want this BAD)

I know it all sounds so easy but its not I just wish i had soem sort of really clear direction.

I also have 3 major bio things this week a disection a test and a quiz.
Im also tryign to figure out all the details for YC.
also YAC is next week and I really dont know how excited I am.

Valentines day is tommorow, I dislike this day alot lol. ughhhhhhhhhh boys confuse me.

i gotta go get some sleep.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

burn

i take back what i said
my luck is not changing
my heart feels crushed
maybe thats an overexageration but not really
fortunatly i have AMAZING friends
*sigh*
I just want things to go back to normal
well back to how there were 2 weeks ago
before things started falling apart
this week wasnt that bad tho lol
well thursday friday and today wearnt
the rest SUCKED lol
whut ev's
ill get over it

if we hold on together

don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away


Words are swaying
Somebody is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i

"If we hold on together"~Land before time

and the band played . . .

I want to make a hybrid of blogger and livejournal ,
I want the blogger layout with the livejournal features such as my mood (drained) and what Im listenign to right now (drops of jupiter~train). I also like the ability to make private and friends only posts.

Other then that little Tidbit there is not much to write about. However today rocked it was mellow and boreing meaning nuthing crappy happened. I have made it 24 hours with out a negative event ! maybe things are getting better lol. I didnt put much about it in here but it has been an absoloutly drainign week. I hope it is ending.

oreo

i owe you an explanation
thursday morning my mom called me at school saying my cat was very sick and may have to be put down
friday mornign the vet called and said he was doing better could i please bring down some of his food to see if he would eat
saturday morning they said he was better and sent him home
sunday morning he died while me and my mom held him
his name was oreo he was my baby and my best friend . . .
this weekend has pretty much sucked

so really i dont want to talk or write about today
i probally wont want to tommorow either
i actually dont feel like writing period
i want to run as fast as i can
until my feet leave the ground
and i am airborne
i want to get as far away from here and now
as i possibly can

scary

so my mom and her fiance went out for a bit and I wasnt to worried when they didnt call because they had only been gone for like an hour or so.
Well a while later i got a call from my mom saying she had fainted and hit her head and they were in the ER in high river, I just now heard back from them that everythign was allright
it was a scary 4 hours.
Thank you to the people that talked to me on the phone to keep me from worrying.
Other then that things are BOREING lol i could be studying for bio but i dont feel like it lol it will be my bedtime reading.

In other news I recieved my YAC forms today I am sort of dissapointed in that YAC seems to be becoming another camp which i know is exactly the opposite of why t was created eek I feel old.
And bitter.
Im gonna end this now
toodlez

story time

I cant sleep it prtty much sucks because I was asleep until my cell phone rang . . . Dont get me wrong im not very angry at the person as it was a sort of important call telling me some stuff i needed to know AND I am usually awake at 11 . . .he did feel some whut guilty. Today was the first day of semester 2 I am quite excited for english especially as we get to keep a journal and get 10% for it also I had the same english teacher in grade 10 and she is one of my favourite teachers, She also has the idea to read to us for the last 15 minutes of classs currently it is "tuesdays with morrie" by mitch albom I am very excited for this class. Bio should be decent . . . ok well im trying positive thinkign with that lol but it probally shouldnt be that bad. I just drank hot milk in an attempt to get back to sleep I really hope it works because i have a student council meeting at 7.45 . . . I guess thats all for now