Sooo its past 3 and I cant sleep . . . suprise suprise



I would really like to sleep Im boreddd . . . I just cant its like theres some switch in my brain and its on when really it should be off . . . My brain is robotic like that Im sure Ill start hhearing buzzing sounds soon. So instead of actually sleeping or trying to sleep Im sittign here listening to radiohead and typing out random drab thoughts that will probally put anyone reading this to sleep.



I dont quite understand our world . . . I see stuff and it makes me want to cry . . . I read stuff and it makes me want to drop out of school and go and save the world. I get this odd little tugging sensation in the back of my mind that Imd oign somethign wrong but the only wrong in what Im doing is that Im doing nothing . . . Im sitting Im reading it Im seeing it but Im not stopping it Im not helping it Im not changing it Im some clueless observer in a sea of faces that is made up of other clueless observers.

Ive also decided that I dislike CNN and the news in general I was neevr one to fall into the "todays youth are desensitised" line but for some reason Im starting to see something that I had ignored before . . . Behind every news story are faces lives people just like me and you and that news story is not a news story but it is there life, If my blog ended up on CNN I might be a lil dissapointed which is ironic because Im putting it out there for all the world to see already hmmmmm I should ponder that.

I think that people think Im a nice person . . . but Im not not at all, I can be very bitter and very defensive. Im sorry.

theres so much I wish I could say so instead I guess Ill just say Im sorry again.

A friend of mine asked me my biggest mistake today . . . I think I lied.

"I dont think there is any difference between creep and human . . ."