Today I went to the dentists . . . It was an emergency dentists trip due to the fact that one of my crowns popped off while I was eating sour soothers and studying . . . From now on Im sticking to the small sour soothers.

However one good thing came out of all this, The dentists office was on the other side of town meaning I managed the metro bus and it wasn't the route that goes to the mall . . . I also read womens studies on the bus,and in the waiting room, and in the dentists chair until I couldnt see the pages because of the dentists hand haha Im soooo hardcore. PS the dentist had these gorgeous blue eyes and yes . . . he was in my mouth (I had to say it I'm sorry)

I just could not fall asleep till around 4 am and I was up at 7.30 . . . I feel sick and tired and pretty much zombie like. I'm considering sleeping instead of womens studies. We shall see.

Im amazed at how fast this semester is going . . . Already half way done :o I find that unnerving.

Dont mind me as I melt into the wall . . .

I think the hardest way to care about someone is having them right beside you and knowing that no matter how hard you try it wont change anything.

I know I'm not supposed to think like this but sometimes I just feel like I have some sort of unfixable flaw . . . like no matter what I do I'm never gonna be good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough, skinny enough or confident enough. Like I'm always gonna be on the sidelines the one who's there but only in the background the one who everyone notices but no one sees. All I want is to be that girl who someone sees as special and somehow I don't think that will ever happen.

Its funny when two people who are supposedly your friends can have a whole conversation and completely ignore you.

Sometimes I feel really torn about home and where home is and what it means to me to be home. ALberta will allways be my home and my family will always be my family, But sometimes I feel like Im trying to hold on to all of that stuff when really I need to be looking for new stuff to hang on to. Im in this state of havoc right now where I love where I am and I love what Im doing but because of stuff at "home" in AB Im finding it hard not to just book a plane ticket and fly there.

Im having a really hard time seperating everything, And I know this is normal but its hard . . .

Im doing downtown ministries tonight and am really excited, Were going down in the salvation army van and handing out coffee etc and just chatting with people it should be a good time.

I finished my geography 1050 midterm today it went suprisingly well, My sociology was on tuesday and it also went really really well but we shall see when my marks get back. So Im officially done till Thursday . . . Im gonna try and get some stuff done though over break so that Im not as swamped up until finals (I stole this idea from ashlee)

Today was the scavenger hunt for winter carnival . . . I never realized that 6 hours could blend so much into one another that they felt more like 2 . . . It was long hard cold wet but fun.

SASF was last night me and ashlee had quite the adventure see heres the story there are these wheely platform things used for moving chairs around well we got the bright idea that you can use them as scooters unless of ocurse your me and are injured well we decide that she will stand and scooter it and I will lay on my belly and use my hands to wheel it difficult yes ? hilarious ? definatly.

I feel empty right now

Soooooooo . . .
No broken bones!!!!!!! I messed up the ligament that attaches my foot to my leg and buggered with the other soft tissue fun right?

Schools ok . . . Were in the middel of political geography so its awesome, Im also still loving sociology. Midterms are coming up but I have a pretty ok midterm schedule.

Rez hockey was tonight the bearcocks beat the rhinodogs 3/2 OHHH YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. It was a sweet game!!!

I dont know really what else to say, My blog is lacking comments . . . does anyone wanna leave me a comment ?