Im feeling very weepy right now for lack of a better word . . . I actually have tears in my eyes and that yucky headachey feeling that comes with tears not being cried. I dont know that anythings WRONG actually really it isnt . . . Im pumped for camp excited for grad and happy about university Im even happy about getting out of here . . . Thats proballly why Im weepy because Im still here.

Sometimes Ijust feel like no matter how hard I try no one REALLY TRULY cares. The only time they care is when thigns get to be to much and i completly bottom out . . . It would just be so much easier if people cared before then. Im not trying to complain or overexagerate Im not as bad as I seem in here I guess Im just stressy. But no one seems to think that Im entitled to be stressy . . . "Oh carly why would you be stressed you never DO anything"

Hmm maybe because I have diploma exams, tryign to get ready for camp, my mothers new marrige, boy issues, friend issues health issues, starting uni, moving and a million other random thigns that need my attention daily. And on top of all that the idea of GRADUATING high school yah as fun as it is its SCARY. Yah I have zero idea why I might be stressed. I guess I just want to feel liek someone actually realizes what Im tryign to deal with (Yah I know thats why Jesus and God is there . . . it just I dunno dosnt feel like it)

Camp makes me happy though it does remind em that god is there. And I found a grad escort that also happy. Just not happy enough, Maybe im just having a girly stint and just need a good cry . . . I should go do that.

4 days till grad !!!!!!!
7 days till camp !!!!!!